My heart knows that you are with God i remember going to church with you as a kid papa in tokoroa when mum and dad would bring us down to see you and nana Ngamata but that was a dark time in my life so i hardly go back to those days but today i will you would say hey you be good boy ah hanan when i say stand you stand when i say sing you sing and when i say sit you sit lol we weren't even in the church door yet but it makes me laugh now as i think about it. I didn't know you very well but what does that matter you are my Grandfather and i love you and i am sorry i didn't get off my a** and make an effort to know you better i love you and I'm grateful to be your grandson because i would not be here. I look and your wedding photo often with my Beautiful Grandmother Hilda you guys look so happy and young and so stunning moe mai e rangatira hoki atu a te Atua moe mai papa I'm sorry i could not be there i just come across this tonight randomly i hardly come or turn up to family things good or bad I've never felt apart of any family only my Nana Hilda but tonight i lay my pride down for you and write this message i love you papa Jack your moko Yohanan